the boxer.

In the clearing stands a boxer, and a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminder of every glove that laid him down or cut him
‘Til he cried out in his anger and his shame
I am leaving, I am leaving, but the fighter still remains
Yes, he still remains.

{the boxer. paul simon}

I was given this “poem” by a seasoned woman in ministry {who also asked me this question}.  She spoke to me when I was in the midst of a terrible time in my life; when depression had consumed me, when my hope had ran dry and when my past had beat the living daylights outta me.  She read me these lines and repeated the last two….”the fighter still remains, yes he still remains.” 

I felt like that moment was holy {even when reading a “secular” song…}.  It was a moment when I heard God speak through a beautifully crafted song.  In the middle of my storm {actually… in the middle of a starbucks in downtown buffalo, to be exact} in the middle of my lostness, and in the middle of my despair, I felt God’s spirit.  The feeling of heartache wasn’t restored in that instant {I didn’t have a radical healing session where she exorcised the pain outta me}…it was better than that.  The pain was something I could bear, but it was my drive that I needed back; my umph, my passion and my “go getter” attitude.  

I felt that umph; in that moment I knew I would persevere.

I imagined myself as that boxer. The one that had been bruised. {by my experience…} The one that had been beaten down.  And one who still carried around my baggage and hurt.  I still clung to my past defeats and pains as if they were my future as well. As this woman read me these lines I realized it was time to shed the past.  Even though I wasn’t completely healed, I had to move forward; the fighter pushed forward, the fighter keeps on fighting.

{I am a fighter.}

And so are you.  Your circumstances that you are in today won’t be there forever.  The problems you face today will be resolved by God’s grace {in his time…which isn’t always our time}. Sometimes we just need to get our drive back, we need to feel that umph of passion pushing us forward into our future.

 You are a fighter.  Through Christ you will persevere.  

Through God’s strength and power you will remain. You will remain.   

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