a lil’ bit of this. a lil’ bit of that.

I realized today that I haven’t really blogged at all about my seminary experience so far! To basically sum it up, I can say that it’s like trying to drink from a fire hose. {that’s the analogy that I was told anyway…} The amount of required reading each week is literally insanity {it’s all such good stuff! I wish I had 30 hour days so I could actually retain it all…I don’t think that will ever become a reality, so I guess I’ll just stick with the water hose analogy}.  And the classes have been so incredibly insightful {I feel like I come out of class every Thursday night feeling like my eyes were opened to a whole new world of thinking. Pretty crazy. Pretty intense. I. Love. It!}.

By far my favorite part about seminary so far is the people.  I’ve always had this preconceived notion {I’m not sure where I got this from…} that everyone in seminary would be boring, square and anti-social {once again…I have no idea where I came up with this..maybe I got seminarians and monks confused?? who knows.} But honestly, these people are incredible.  When I say incredible, I mean incredible. They are the most honest, caring, insightful, patient and real people I have met in a looonnnnggg time. {and to add, they are the complete opposite of boring, square and anti-social!!}  I feel so honored to be around each one of them.

The most interesting part about seminary so far is the faith sharing group. {sigh…..} To explain a faith sharing group, it is a bunch of my classmates who fill out mini journals each day, and come together every two weeks or so and share what God has been showing us. {sounds great eh?}  The only catch is that you cannot respond to anyone’s response {you would think that this would be easy…but as soon as you aren’t allowed to talk, suddenly the urge to talk becomes much stronger}.  We sit as a group of people who are sharing our inmost thoughts and feelings, exposing details of our lives that no one else knows…and then we get to sit. In silence. And not say a word. {talk about torture}

I was thinking about this whole sharing experience last night during the session, about how real our lives and stories had become to each other.  My classmates were opening up about their fears, insecurities, praises, successes, failures, troubles, issues, blessings…we all have talked about everything under the sun.  {and of course…for the first month I was a crying hot mess, talk about a great first impression}  All I could think about in this time as people shared their very personal, intimate emotions and experiences is that this is how we are supposed to do life.  Together.  Jesus longs for us to be real with each other, to open up our hearts to share what we are really feeling and what we are really thinking about our lives and circumstances. {for more on authenticity}  It is absolutely crazy to me each night at faith sharing how from the outside everyone looks calm and in control…and then when it’s their turn to share…and they expose this utter chaos from within themselves.

Even though I can’t respond to my classmates situations, I feel like somehow I am doing life with them, experiencing their lives as I live mine.  It’s truly a beautiful thing, to see the inner thoughts and emotions of an individual, and connect with them on that personal and spiritual level, because in your heart you know you’ve felt or thought the same thing.  That’s the body of Christ working and breathing; interconnected by similar feelings, experiences and thoughts; learning from one another through those very elements that make us who we are.

I don’t really have an insightful one liner like I usually do, I just figured I’d let you contemplate on your own what God is telling your from all that.  All I can say is that I’m so thankful for this season of my life, so thankful that I get to do life with my classmates and so thankful that this is how God calls us to live all throughout our lives.


One thought on “a lil’ bit of this. a lil’ bit of that.

  1. I am a HUGE advocate for authentic, real Christians! There is a lot of fear out there in regards to “exposing who we really are” but when we can understand – truly grasp – that we are all naked human souls before God Himself, that we can’t hide from Him; we should be drawn by His kindness to repentance and freedom to be real with others as well. Great post, Laura! I love following you on your journey!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s